Went to the shelter today and found out that they hired someone over me...so much for being next on the list...
She does'nt even look like shelter material...hell I thought she was a kid there to voulenteer or doing community service, she looked so unkempt...I've been there for almost 2-3 years giving them my time and doing a lot for them...and they hire some girl who looks 15...

Crona, one of the cats, even attacked her boyfriend. I LOL at that now.
It was on the face too. If I had been around I would have said to not lift her since she's iffy...that new girl should have known too...but no, she does'nt know the cats like I do...I've got the bonds and knowledge...she just has the slight know of the cats.

I could complain more...like her waiting for me to wash the water bowls so she could follow me out to take out the trash and all...yeah...Im fine on my own, rookie....also, I dont like being interupted when I have knowledge and you have some of it...let me talk!

Ughh...
I help out there tomorrow afternoon. I guess just helping is far more rewarding than anything...

Buring down Stephine Myer's house, BBL

I seemed to have lost my LJ subscription oddly...hmm...oh well...


AAC was lonely and kinda slow for me...
I met up with people but some had things to do after a while. The formal sucked, only got to dance once and I seemed very out of place. My cosplay sucked and got called a mary-sue multiple times by the same person when I was Xion...did'nt wear that cosplay again...
I did meet some awesome people, like Harris or AKA Combee.
I was up till 3am watching Wall.E on some guy's laptop and just being random...
It was an ok con but...I do need a friend to room with who will hang out and shit...

Today was not one of my best...accually this whole week has been pretty shitty. Feel free to skip this entry if you dont want to hear about my issues.
I'll start with the small and work to the big.

Found out that Chuck's mother passed away at the age of 102.
That's pretty damn amazing to live that long...but I feel sad about the whole thing...also, found out that a dying body just gets tired and you go to sleep forever...kinda peacefull to know that but still scarry at the same time...


Maine voted agienst gay's getting married...this is why I hate people so much...they're already happy and want to make other's misserable...people are stupid and self centered...
Just wait till someone in their family ends up being gay...


Now, the big stresser, and Im sure I'll get smacked around for this is...I got my assisted living.
Why am I not happy? Hard to say...I just dont feel comfortable with it but I accepted the place cuz parental unit said I should just take it.
The place is cute n all...and who knows...maybe I'll change my mind on it later but...it's scarry and I just dont feel ready...
Too bad this did'nt happen WHEN I was ready...life can be lame sometimes...


Other than that...life sucks at the moment and not much is happening.
Hopefully the anime meet on Sunday will clear my mind....

Roxas says:
wait...purple?

Xion says:
blue n green?

Xion says:
mixed

Roxas says:
makes blue gree

Roxas says:
*green

Xion says:
......fuck you

Xion says:
what makes purple!?

Xion says:
red and...

Xion says:
blue?

Roxas says:
yes

Xion says:
fuck!

Roxas says:
its ok

Xion says:
curse you color wheel!

Check out my mad dancing skills

I was trying to think of what I should do for 'ween and now I know!

Friday I'll be going to the arcade for their Freaky Friday party. I'll be dressed as a wolf and it will be grand.

Saturday I'll be going to the mall with my friends.
I'll be wearing partialy my Undertaker cosplay. Not all of it since it dose'nt fit and I dont have the wig.

I'll get pics!

So I ordered my Crona wig and paid extra for it to get here before November...

WELL!

I get it this morning and, oh my, it's not fucking styled!
They had it advertised as it being styled, that's why I went with them! So now I have to do it myself and I fail at that, again, why I went with this site...

I of course sent an e-mail of question...and I better get my fucking answer!
If they say I did'nt ask for/select it to be styled I'll punch something...I saw NO WHERE of it asking if I wanted it styled...one would think that if the site advertised it styled...it would be...

I ordered an Undertaker cosplay and it ended up being too big.
So I asked if I could return it, they said yes. They said to return it and all that jazz, so I boxed it up and wrote what they said on it.

I asked if the invoice needed to be in the box (since I forgot) and they said that I did'nt have to return it...
So Im all kinds of confused right now. They say to return it, now they dont? I guess that's okay, but still...I'll have two of this costume...althou that's not all that bad...but damn Im so confused right now!

Also, Im suprised I have'nt crashed yet.
Changing songs on an iPod is dangerous LOL!

So yesterday I went with Stella to take her pets to the vet.

She was inside, catching her cat and I was outside with the pomeranian. I was holding the dog, loving on her when she wiggled and fell from my arms, onto the hard driveway. She started crying and I thought for sure I had killed her since she seemed to have fallen on her head!
Stella comes out, crates the dog and we leave. I told her and she said it was fine and that Coco had fallen from much higher hights...

Still I get all upset when I think about it...
The sound she made hitting the ground and the way she cried...well...she's allowed to bite me any time she wants...I deserve it...

I heard it's supposed to rain and snow tonight...I about died upon hearing that...I really hope it passes. I wont be suprised if it falls *woe*
I should go get my groceries but I dont want to drive...uhhh...I feel like shit...Chuck sucks for bringing home a cold and shareing it with everyone *rage*
I've been taking care of myself so Im hoping I can kick it.

I may take it easy so I can see Wild Things tomorrow night...

Taking Kisa to a pet communicator on the 24th...this will be quite interesting to see what she'll have to say about my cat given to me from the devil. Im slightly skeptical but if she hits the nail on the head with Kisa I will be forever amazed.
Im also curious too since I've always wanted to see an animal psychic at work. One thig for sure is...is that Kisa will not enjoy the almost 1 hour drive to the place.

Also, why is it that when I talk little on MSN, people instantly think that Im pissed or want to be left alone?
If I wanted to be left alone I would'nt fucking be on MSN now would I? People who jump to conclusions like that piss me off, so I just let them belive what they assume...one of the many reasons I dont want a room mate if I move out...one of the many....

On a better note...
My mom will be home soon from North Carolina! FUCK YEAH!

Got my driver's licence.

BRB going for a drive.

I hate being stressed...Im so stressed right now I dunno if I can sleep...

Im getting my blood work done on Tuesday...today rather...so Im freaking out about that...
Trying for my road test on Wednesday...so I need to let the shelter know I wont be there...
My sick, sick mind...that's all Im saying...Im considering therapy again...

I hate people...I really do...
Sometimes I wish I had been born a cat...

Ugh...hell Im exhusted...


The FYE anime meet was alright. I kinda wish it was'nt in a mall of judgmental assholes and paranoid soccor moms....it makes it hard to enjoy yourself...
I went as Luppi...not sure if I wanna cosplay him again or what...I failed kinda hard since Im fat.

Monday Im eitherr getting my blood drawn and taking my driving test...or going to make an appointment to take my road test....DMV's fail so hard...

Ahhh it's raining....i love it...it's making me more sleepy...

I love Zoo Tycoon for the computer...even if I do fail at it...

Planning on getting blood taken on Friday or Monday. We're going to try thru the hand first. I dont feel so quezy when thinking a needle will be going thru my hand...my arm is just too sensitive...I cant even have people touch it with out me squrming about...Wish me luck!

My friend Stella leaves for Indiana in 4 more hours! She'll be gone for 5 days and I get to watch her kitty. Im sure she'll have over 9000 a zillion stories to tell me when she comes back.

Going off with my gram tomorrow. Hopefully I can get some stuff mailed off before we head to the event she's inviting me to. It hould be fun, and afterwards I'll challange her to a game of dominos and possibly Mississippi mud.

Blood draw did not go so well...I started to freak out and the nurse simply gave up and said to try the hospital...lame nurse was lame...the turnaquite was'nt even tight...but she was nice...
She could'nt get blood and I was starting to feel sick so I agreed to hold it off to get it done later...

Im such a wuss puss...Im going to the doctor tomorrow with possible blood being drawn...Im bringing a plushie to help me thru it...yeah...I feel so stupid, but Im sure it'll help along with putting my head down on the table...I HATE getting blood drawn...

That's all I was updateing about...nothing exciting on my end...

Talked to mom about the money and figured it be best to hang on to it incase I get accepted into assisted living.
I had a good feeling thats what the money was for, but my gram mentioned that I could get my TV and mini lap top with it so I was confused. It's now tucked away until further notice...

I still dont think I deserve it thou...

My grandmother has given me about $1000 and I feel as thou I dont deserve it...she says I can get the new TV I need and the mini laptop I said I'd like...but I should put it to something more...I've only taken $50 out and used it for small things. The two other $50's Im gonna put in my wallet for if I need anything...but I fell so bad that she does this for just me...
I dont know...I need to do something for her in return...normaly I would spend it all like mad, but I feel as thou I should hold onto it...

I dunno...I feel spoiled for having it...